Dear blog,

I cried 1/4 of my day away. As I'm typing this, my eyes are still watery.
Is it my heart breaking?
I lost hopes because I was so looKing forward to meet u.
& u knew that I had booked you on this very day. Me, me, I was e first to book u.
Instead, u went to play soccer with your friends.
I dont want to be one of your choices but be your priority.
I'm getting so tired of these repeating situations.
Worst, it always end with World War 3+++ with u when I confronted.
But i was totally hearbrOken when u said," My world don't evolves around you".
Heart crashed, hopes sunk to the deepest.
And I realised that I should make changes to my world now.
You have your friends, I have mine too.
So I promise that I won't shout, cry and get upset over such matters.
Cos I just want you to be happy.

I`m falling in lurve with NOKIA E71 in white. Cant wait for the surprise!!
10 MORE DAYS to go till Redzah's 4th Years Anniversary, 28th December. weehoo~




Time pass by so quickly that it seems like yesterday when me & baby just got together. You prove that your love for me is indeed true. I see us holding hands by the beach & travel around the world together in the future. May Allah bless us both with happiness.

There were times when I feel like stepping on his foot and run away & times when I just wanted to hold him tight for as long as it takes. Do you feel that the time stops for you the moment you kiss the one you love? When looking at him, do you ever feel that there noone else around but just two of you? I do.....

A love so strong, yet we are far at times.
For all I know, I keep falling in lurve for you.

PS: Still thinking how should I surprise baby?

13 DECEMBER 2008, SILOSO BEACH@SENTOSA, SINGAPORE
Out of ZOUK, ZOUK OUT 2008 rawks. It was fun with accompany of friends. The best part of all, baby treat me and I feel like a princess. Reached sentosa around 10pm and camwhore before we enter the event. I'm too lazy to update blog & edit the pictures so the picture are fresh from the camera. lol.































On the way to MACS before heading home. I tell you, it was tiring that I can sleep on the grass.


Looking all shagged after the whole thing ended.
PS:Baby didnt sleep for the whole day before going to ZOUKOUT. *faint
Back to reality check!
The whole thing was fun. I want the next ZOUKOUT..ROOARR..






Now, I have to wait for the next ZOUKOUT =( , maybe it will baby's treat again! lol. In my dreams...
see you guys next yr! TTYL for now.

I have 5 seconds to type & give my says

before I bid you good night.


No.1- Remember my previous post on babylove? Well, we ended up shouting at each other on the phone. All thanks to me for starting everything. Having those reprimands from him were deserving! I know I went overboard bcos its been a long time I heard him shouting.
Bad, Bad fuzah. Ok..back to No. 1, we make up and kissed that very day.
We have dinner at Coffee Club, Takashimaya. I love, love the ambience there. It so cosy. I'm so going back there again and eat babylove's previous order. It taste damn good.!

People, like us, wear on facades in our daily lives,
For I hope that people could be themselves,
Instead of all the pretends and wicked b*tching,
Telling lies is as much as betraying yourself,
Took off your bored facial expression & change for a smiling one,
Stop the hate and give the world your foremost love,
Be trueful to yourself because only you have the solutions in your tiny heart,
I anticipate to see more smiling faces, more freedom plus less boredom!
Take me on a trip I wanna go some day,
Go to the limits where you wanna reach as high as it could be,
& If you fall, you will never know who will catch your back.


Hi. As a person, I feel that I'm turning into a boring person with less life.
Wait, Is that life supposed to be it? I think twice. No, definitely a no-no.
Life is supposed to be enjoying, accompany with good friends and being happy in what I do for a living. At the same time, having time for myself! I have been anticipating for that dream to turn to reality. Maybe, I'm an extremist. For I really wanna run away from what I have and start a new beginning. Is that too much to ask? Yet, I know I have to overcome all my doubts and clear them. Especially with project piling up, I have nowhere to hide but to fight it with bare hands. By typing out all the proposals, answers and powerpoint slides, of cos! what are you thinking?

Sooner or later, I will turn into a true bimbo, once a intellectual person and now, the bored, with less variety of topics to talk from,not forgetting answering dumbly to questions(i talk bout shopping, thou if we share the same interest).

I've not been socialising that much with clique, no longer taking photoshots of me, or should I say I chat with them, only if i bump into my friends online or at the streets. I need a change!
Plus didn't meet babylove for almost 1 week, I think. If there are couples like us, I'm feeling you. For I wonder sometimes, How my boyfriend could still stay with me?
hmm...you'll be my verdict!

Stop my whinings. A little update: Had business ettiquette today and after a 10 mins role play, she could only said, "Okay, Average, Medicore". For all the effort we put into! I hope that people have more motivating words to comment on others than those! For now, the last few words I wanted to hear are some motivation.

It's 11.19pm,time checked. I need to start printing things and rest my eyes. Bye-Bye!

Love,
YOURSNarcissism